SCARS TELL STORIE’S.



OUR SCARS TELL STORY’S AND NOT ALL OF US ARE HERE TO TELL EVERYONE WHY
WE WANTED TO TAKE OUR OWN LIVES OR THINK ABOUT IT MORE THEN WE SHOULD.
YES THIS WILL OPEN SOME EYES AND HURT SOME BECAUSE I DO HAVE FRIENDS
ON HERE THAT KNOW ME PERSONALLY AND HAVE NO IDEA. THE REASON THEY
DON’T KNOW AS ANYONE IN THE FAMILY IS BECAUSE I DON’T CALL OUT WHEN IM
IN A DARK PLACE. SOMETIME’S IT ISN’T EASY TO CALL FOR HELP BEFORE YOU
HAVE ALREADY MADE THAT MISTAKE. THE TWO TIMES THAT I HAVE TRIED TO
COMMIT SUICIDE IT WAS BACK IN 2009. MY EX FINALLY CAME HOME AND ALL HE
SAW WAS BLOOD AND ME WITH ALOT OF ALCOHOL AROUND ME. HE CALLED MY MOM
AND MY MOM SAVED MY LIFE WHILE HE WAS SAYING HE DIDN’T LOVE ME. I HAD
NO IDEA WHAT WAS SAID BECAUSE I TOOK PILLS, DRANK, AND WAS BLEEDING
ALOT. AFTER THAT MY MOM TOOK ME HOME TO HER HOUSE AND I STARTED
GETTING MY LIFE BACK TOGETHER FOR IT TO FALL APART AGAIN IN 2010 WHEN
MY DAD COMMITTED SUICIDE AND TOOK HALF OF ME WITH HIM. I HAPPEN TO GET
TO HIM RIGHT WHEN HE PULLED THE TRIGGER. THE ONLY THING THAT GOT ME
THROUGH WAS LISTENING TO EMINEM, LINKIN PARK, AND MY MOM. I
DISAPPEARED FROM EVERYONE AND BECOME SOMEONE I DIDN’T KNOW BUT I
DIDN’T CARE. I DID SOME HOW FINISH COLLEGE THROUGH OUT ALL OF IT. 2018
I AGAIN TRIED TO COMMIT SUICIDE AND AS I WAS CUTTING SOMETHING MADE ME
PICK UP MY PHONE AND REACH OUT TO A TOTAL STRANGER WHO IS A GOOD
FRIEND THROUGH A GAME I PLAY ON MY PHONE AND HE TALKED ME OUT OF IT
AND MADE ME LAUGH. WHAT HURT THE MOST IS THAT I HAD PROMISED MY MOM I
WOULDN’T EVER DO IT AGAIN AND I WILL NOT LEAVE HER BEFORE SHE LEAVES
ME AND I BROKE IT. YES IM STILL HERE BUT I STILL BROKE THE PROMISE.
THERE’S ALOT THAT WILL TRIGGER IT AND I CAN’T HONESTLY TELL YOU WHY OR
WHAT IT IS BECAUSE IT COULD BE MANY THINGS AT THAT MOMENT. I HAVE
DECIDED THAT I WILL SPEAK OUT ABOUT MY ISSUES AND MY TRAUMA TO HELP
OTHERS, KNOW THAT THEY AREN’T ALONE AND THERE’S ALOT OF US OUT HERE
LIKE THEM. WE AREN’T ALONE AND WE CAN SURVIVE THIS! I DID HAVE HELP
PUSHING ME TO FREE MY VOICE AND SHE IS AN ANGEL HERSELF WHO IS A
SURVIVOR HERSELF. THANK YOU Jessica M Wilkes AKA MOMMA RAPPER

#SURVIVOR #FREEINGMYVOICE #HELPINGOTHERS #SPEAKINGUP #STRONGEREVERYDAY
#FIGHTER #RISEABOVE #RAGEBABIE




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