Two different people same ending!

TWO DIFFERENT PEOPLE SAME ENDING!!! I CANT CALL EITHER ONE OF YOU, SEE EITHER ONE OF YOU, HUG, JOKE, OR ANYTHING ELSE I WOULD LOVE TO DO WITH EITHER ONE OF YOU! ONE OF YOU IS MY DAD, THE OTHER A CLOSE FRIEND! YOU BOTH TOOK YOURSELVES AWAY FROM ME AND OTHERS.. DAD I THOUGHT YOU LOVED US ENOUGH TO LIVE BUT A BLACK WIDOW WAS MORE IMPORTANT TO YOU! I COULDN’T CONVINCE YOU THAT I NEEDED YOU MORE THEN ANYTHING AND STILL DO! SHON YOU WERE ALWAYS LAUGHING, JOKING, HAPPY, FULL OF LIFE, AND ALWAYS THERE FOR EVERYONE. WHEN I HEARD THE NEWS I WAS SHOCKED! I WOULD HAVE NEVER THOUGHT BUT NOW LOOKING BACK I SEE ALOT THAT I DIDN’T BEFORE. SOME TIMES IT’S HARD TO SEE WHEN YOU HAVE YOUR OWN DEMONS. IM ANGRY, HURT, LOST, SAD, AND SO MUCH MORE ITS HARD TO EXPLAIN EXACTLY HOW I FEEL. HOLIDAYS ARE HERE AND NO ONE CAN SHARE IT WITH EITHER OF YOU OR CALL TO WISH YOU ANYTHING! THIS IS WHY I SPEAK ABOUT MY LIFE BECAUSE IVE LIVED THIS ALONG WITH OTHER SHIT THAT HASNT BEEN GOOD. IF MY SPEAKING OUT HELPS SOMEONE GET HELP OR JUST TALK SO THEY FEEL BETTER THEN I FEEL I AM SUCCESSFUL IN WHAT IM TRYING TO DO… I WONT LIE EVEN WITH ME SAYING THIS AND GOING THROUGH ALL THIS BECAUSE OF MY MENTAL ILLNESS I STILL REACH OUT FOR HELP MYSELF BECAUSE NONE OF THIS COMES TO MIND WHEN IM IN A DARK PLACE….. #FREEINGMYVOICE #HELPINGOTHERS #SURVIVOR #FIGHTER #RAGEBABIE

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